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Mythology & Romance

AJ Hotz — Mon, 20 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Three Weeks Later...

Considering I've been away for only about 3 weeks this time, I might make this a regular thing; one blog update every few weeks instead of trying to force something weekly or bi-weekly. It feels a lot more natural, and I’d rather show up with something real than rush to fill space... which is something I've done before with my blog actually.

I've been able to maintain a natural routine recently. However, I'm still working to get into a manageable gym routine, but my allergies this season have been so severe that I haven't even been able to make it to the gym. Only about once a week does the pollen let me go into the gym without almost killing me.

Regardless, I'm still working on eating well, and that's the biggest piece of the battle. I don't think I've mentioned this, but due to the recent stress within the past year, I've put on about 20lbs—not in a good way. I've never had to lose weight before—contrarily, I've had trouble gaining healthy weight for years. To be real with you all, I think that's one of the many reasons that I haven't been active on social media. I can visually see the weight gain.

Everyone has their insecurities, and this is one of mine.

Reading Recommendations

I didn’t expect this, but I’ve been on a bit of a reading streak lately, and I don't want it to stop. I feel like I did when I finally got back into reading in late-2022/early-2023.

I’ve been leaning into a mix of darker fiction and mythology-heavy nonfiction, which has been a really interesting balance. There’s something about switching between those two that keeps things from feeling repetitive. Not to mention, I've always loved a good nonfiction piece.

If you are looking for a mythology-heavy dark nonfiction book, check out my two recent nonfiction reads: Mysterious Celtic Mythology in American Folklore by Bob Curran and Gods and Robots: Myths, Machines, and Ancient Dreams of Technology by Adrienne Mayor.

If you are looking for something dark in the fiction world, both related to romance, check out my other two recent reads this week: The Vampire Diaries: The Awakening by LJ Smith and Dark Paradise by Jillian Elizabeth (however, I don't believe the latter is available anymore, unless Jillian recently put it back as available on Amazon or KU).

As stated above, I finished the first book in The Vampire Diaries series by LJ Smith, which I’ve always wanted to read. I went into it with the same mindset I had with Twilight: watch the live adaptation, read the book, then decide which is best. And honestly, even seeing the TV show first, the book still wins. It always does. I actually didn't even finish the TV show; it really started to lose me at the 3rd season. The 4th season? Forget about it—I didn't even try to get through it.

But if you have anything that blends folklore, mythology, or darker themes, I’m very open to recommendations.

Current Reads

Right now, I'm juggling two books, both in totally different realms. Literally, the only thing these two have in common is that they are both fiction: Tek War by William Shatner and Unwrapped by Them by Eva Ashwood.

Tek War is a sci-fi book that takes place in a futuristic version of Earth, where our main character, Jack Cardigan, has been released from the "Freezer" early, as he was framed for selling a popular addiction, though not exactly a "drug," called Tek.

Unwrapped by Them is a holiday romance, which includes why choose (MFMM), forced proximity, boss, and ex-boyfriend's brother tropes.

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Hi friends…

AJ Hotz — Wed, 1 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Hi friends...

It’s been a minute.

I didn’t mean to disappear the way I did, but life shifted into a dramatic and heavy time where creating felt more like pressure than something I could enjoy. Last year was probably the most stressful year of my life, and even through it all, I tried to keep posting. And then July came around and I just couldn’t mentally keep it up. I started falling off the map. I posted original content on Tiktok up until September; anything I posted after that was a re-upload or re-post.

It took me several months to get back to myself: doing things that I love to do, watching things that bring me comfort or make me smile… even just reading and writing.

I think sometimes we expect ourselves to push through no matter what, but I’ve been learning that stepping back isn’t the same as giving up. It’s just part of the process. Even when it comes to working out, I took a break from that. But I didn’t give up. Giving up doesn’t happen until you stop for good. I started working out again, and I started watching things that keep me calm—things like true crime and other TV shows that I’ve seen before. It’s all very comfortable and predictable, which is exactly what I needed.

Lately, I’ve been easing back into things. Picking everything up piece by piece.

And through it all, I created a bigger change for my brand…

I’ll be honest: I’ve hated marketing myself since the moment I created a social media account to do that. It’s actually grown into such a stressor—trying to find readers, trying to reach my audience, trying to keep up with creating videos—that I just said, “Fuck this. I’m done.”

Now, my books are free. Truly, I just want people to read my work. I don’t care if it makes me money or not. Would the money be nice? Absolutely—who’s going to say “no” to that? But continuing to make videos, go Live on Tiktok, and trying to convince readers that my work is worth purchasing so that they can read it, has all just been too much to deal with, and I’d rather give my books away for free. And in this economy, it feels morally wrong for me to ask people who are struggling to buy groceries and pay rent to then purchase something that isn’t a necessity.

So, I’ve made it optional to support me. If you’d like to support me, you can “buy me a coffee” here for however much you want. However much you feel I deserve or can give. Even if it’s not money, sharing my videos and spreading the word that my books are free is equally helpful. I’ll be creating content sporadically just to get the word out—but I’m not taking it further than that. I’m not stressing myself out to upload 2-3 videos per day. Just random posts when I feel like it to spread to Booktok and the like that my books are available, free, and please read.

I wanted to make my books as accessible as possible, so if you’ve been wanting to read them, now’s a good time to grab them. The EPUB and PDF formats are both available on this website under each book’s section. This goes to say, in order to abide by Kindle Unlimited’s contract, they are no longer available on Kindle Unlimited. But they are still available to purchase on Amazon if you’d like. And if you’d prefer a physical copy, I do have some available, and I’m happy to send those out too. Just reach out to me on one of my social’s or send me an email, either directly to my email or through this website; I’ll get the messages either way.

Within the news of actually writing books, I haven’t been writing as consistently as I was before, but I have been thinking about my stories a lot recently, now that I’m feeling more like myself—even if myself is a little different than I was before. Probably something you won’t notice if you aren’t involved in my personal life.

Most of my focus has been on reconnecting with my characters and figuring out where I want the story to go emotionally rather than just plot-wise. I think stepping away actually helped with that. Some things feel clearer now, especially in the middle-to-late sections I was struggling with before, which has been a problem-area in every book that I’ve written.

I’m trying to approach writing a little differently moving forward, and it helps that I’m not pressuring myself with deadlines to create content to publish books:

Less pressure to hit word counts every day
More focus on writing scenes that I’m actually excited about
Letting things feel natural again—not forced

It’s slower, but it feels more sustainable, and I think the story—and my story—will be better for it.

Reading Recommendations

I’ve been in a bit of an off-and-on reading phase, but when I have picked something up, I’ve been leaning toward darker, more emotional reads (no surprise there), but I have only been reading books that I have already read before. This relates back to the TV shows and true crime that I’ve watched before—I need comfort and predictability. I need to read something that I know I will love.

I’m sure I will get back to reading new stuff soon, as I’m always trying to support fellow indie authors. But right now, my emotional-state needs, again, comfort and predictability.

So, to celebrate some of my favorite reads, here they are again:

Filthy Wicked Psychos series by Eva Ashwood

Dreamland by Sarah Dessen

Fighting for Evie by Taylor Delvaux

I also reread two of my own books: Hollow and Love

Current Reads

I know that I just said that I’ve been reading books that I’ve already read before, but I would like to declare that I have also tried reading new books.

Currently, I am trying to finish some shorter books that I’ve found: The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner by Stephanie Meyer and White Holes by Carlo Rovelli.

I also recently finished Girl, Stop Apologizing and Girl Wash Your Face, both by Rachel Hollis.

Finds Unrelated to Reading

Lately, I’ve been finding small ways to stay creative or active even when I’m not actively writing.

A couple things I’ve been into:

I’ve started knitting again, which has been a really nice and mindless task where I can watch or listen to anything while still feeling like I’m accomplishing something.
Finding structured routines again that make the day feel more structured without being rigid—still some flexibility to the schedule.
Getting back into a routine workout schedule that can shift with my life when work gets in the way—something I can always adjust if necessary and still find my way back to easily.

It’s nothing groundbreaking, but it’s been helping me feel more grounded.

Movies & TV Shows

I’ve definitely been in more of a “comfort watch” mood lately.

A mix of:

Rewatching familiar shows that I don’t have to fully focus on.
Picking up darker or more intense series when I’m in the mood for it—specifically true crime or cybersecurity lectures for anything new.
Letting things play in the background while I work on other stuff—or even just cleaning or doing chores.

I think right now I’m less interested in finding something new and more interested in things that feel familiar or easy to fall into.

Thanks for sticking around, even with the quiet gaps. I’m easing back into things, and I’m really glad to be here again.

“It's so easy to get caught up in what people expect of you. Sometimes, you can just lose yourself.” - Sarah Dessen, Dreamland

More to come soon 🤍

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The Next Installment

AJ Hotz — Tue, 15 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Third Book Published

Hollow: The One Who Remains has officially been released, and I’ve spent the last couple weeks catching up on general marketing that I did not do prior to release, like I should have.

Work has already begun on the next installment of The Barrenmire Lights collection. The title has been chosen (and will be revealed closer to release), and if everything stays on track, it’ll be released at the end of this year. The tone will be in line with the rest of the collection—eerie, emotional, laced with grief, connection, and the threads of darkness that tie people together.

I’ve also officially launched my TikTok Shop, HotzSpot, which means you can now grab signed copies and book bundles directly through both TikTok and Etsy. The book bundle for Hollow is the only listing/product that is missing from both shops, but it is coming soon! Look for it by the end of this week.

I have also started Tiktok Lives twice per week. Wednesdays 9:30-10:30pm MST you can join me while I craft custom coasters for Can't Control (start to finish from the blank slate wood to the final seal) and Sundays at the same time (9:30-10:30pm MST) you can join me hand-pouring honey candles for Hollow.

If you've been following along and considered picking up any of my three books, this is the easiest way to do it, and it helps support me as an indie author in the best way (Amazon & KU only go so far).

Current Reads

This week, I went out of my way to search for an indie author on Tiktok who just released a new dark romance book earlier this year. It is a dark, stalker romance, and I purchased my copy via KU. Without You Noticing by E.D. Flores, book one in the Loving You Duology.

If you're looking for someone completely new to read, check out E.D. Flores or search on Tiktok for specifics like "dark romance indie author" and apply the "This Week" filter. I guarantee you'll find someone new.

Reading Recommendations

Looking for a book that isn't too long? I got you. I'm only a quarter of the way through right now, but check out the book mentioned above, Without You Noticing, as it is barely 200 pages.

When I'm not in the right headspace for a hefty book, I turn to a few of my favorites to reread:

Ours for Halloween by Violet Taylor - 134 pages. Dark romance, demons, fated mates. (But really, you could check out any of Violet Taylor's books, as they're all great and all short reads).

Deal with a Demon by Ami Wright - 158 pages. Demon romance, fated mates.

Oliver by Roxie McClaine - 184 pages. Android romance, takes place in the future.

Shameless plug of my own books, because Love: The One Who Leaves is only 211 pages and Hollow: The One Who Remains is only around 230 pages.

Finds Unrelated to Reading

I recently picked up a Fitbit Blaze from Facebook Marketplace, and honestly, it was totally worth it. I lost my last watch a while back (which was a gift and had a lot of sentimental value) so that sucks. But I’ve also been meaning to get something that would track my steps every day, and the Fitbit just made sense. I knew I didn't want a smartwatch, and yeah, my phone tracks my steps, but I never keep my phone in my pocket, like ever, so I wanted something that could accurately track my steps and stick with me throughout the day. It’s sleek, simple, and does exactly what I need without being intrusive.

And having a 9-to-5 desk job and being an indie author means that I spend most of my day sitting. While I do strength training a few times a week, that only goes so far. Sitting for hours on end isn’t exactly the picture of health, and this little device is showing reality in a perspective for me by telling me how little I actually walk every day. I want to be healthy—not just in those few active moments, but overall—and this is the wake-up call I didn’t realize I needed.

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Taking Control

AJ Hotz — Mon, 16 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

“Your success depends on the uncomfortable conversations you’re willing to have.”

It sounds so simple until you start applying it to your own life... then it stings when it finally settles in.

I found this quote from a Reddit post almost a year ago now. A guy shared his experience trying to go back to college. He had already earned most of the credits needed for his degree and was hoping to finally finish. I'm sure you know the usual or have at least been there yourself like I have: go to college, drop out, want to finish college, go back to college drop out, repeat. He applied online, just like anyone would, and what he got back was a cold, impersonal rejection letter. No explanation. No room for discussion. Just no.

He vented to his boss at the time, who gave him the blunt advice above: “Your success depends on the uncomfortable conversations you’re willing to have.” Followed up with basically, "Go back in person, and tell them you want in. There's no reason they shouldn't take you back to finish your degree."

So, he did. He went to the department, asked to speak to someone, and laid out why he should be readmitted. Easy enough, and they let him back in.

That story has stuck with me ever since I read it.

Because it’s so much easier to wait until we feel “ready.” Until we have the perfect resume, the ideal portfolio, the polished pitch. It’s easier to avoid the discomfort that comes with uncertainty or possible rejection. But I’ve been realizing more and more lately: if I want to move forward—whether that’s with freelance writing, publishing, or expanding my reach as an author—I can’t wait to feel ready. I can’t just sit back, hoping someone will notice my work. I have to be the one who speaks up, who walks in, who starts the uncomfortable conversation.

Yes, I could set up an Upwork or Fiverr profile (which I have done and recently deactivated). I could wait until I’ve built more client work or polished samples. But the truth is, those things won’t build themselves. I have to reach out to the publications I believe align with my voice and my interests. I have to submit the pitch, write the cold email, and follow up when I've heard nothing back.

This all plays into content creation as well. Creating content online—whether I'm marketing my book or putting my opinion out there—was never my plan. I just want to write. I want to write books. I want to write articles. I want to start my own publication someday. But I can't do any of what I want without putting myself out there and feeling uncomfortable and awkward about it. If I want to be a full-time writer, I need to make that happen myself.

Success comes from the most persistent person in the room. The person who keeps showing up, even after no. Even when it’s hard—especially when it’s hard.

Current Reads

I have abandoned a good handful of books, and I recently added two more to the list. You guessed it: the two I mentioned last week and the week before. Lady in the Tower by Alison Weir and Cleopatra: A Life by Stacy Schiff.

Now, not to say I won't get back to them someday. I actually have a separate "bookshelf" on my Goodreads titled "Abandoned" that I plan to read eventually. That "eventually" may not come for a few years, but I do plan to try again.

You might be thinking, "AJ, you DNF'd an audiobook? You didn't have time to just listen to it?" The reality is... no, I do not, actually. Between my full-time job, my home life, appointments, and completing the final-final edits for Hollow: The One Who Remains, I can't simply listen to an audiobook during those times.

What I can do is read before I go to sleep, because that is when I have available free time. Regarding control specifically, I picked up The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. I picked it up, because I'm in the mood for something with themes of control that was written before 2000. I figure since this is such a famous literary piece, it seems perfect and really focuses on control within personal, societal, and psychological aspects.

Reading Recommendations

Staying on the theme of control, I’m taking a moment to toot my own horn and recommend my book Can’t Control.

This book is more than just a why choose, dark romance. It looks at control in a variety of ways, different in each character. How to take back control when chaos reigns. Control can mean obsession. It can be vulnerability masked as strength. Can’t Control taps into all of that.

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What Happens When Everything Shifts

AJ Hotz — Tue, 3 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Plans Changed but Not the Story

It looks like my blog is officially shifting into a bi-weekly schedule once again. This wasn’t exactly planned, but with everything happening (wrapping up my next book, unexpected health changes, and real life doing what it always does) this makes the most sense right now. Truthfully, it takes the pressure off, and I know I’ll be able to show up here with more energy and intention when I’m not forcing weekly updates on top of everything else, especially when weekly updates don't hold many changes.

Now, for the surgery update. That’s changed, too.

My septoplasty and bilateral turbinectomy were canceled. And not just rescheduled—completely canceled. I was supposed to be one of the last surgeries my surgeon performed before leaving the practice, but as the universe has provided me, I got sick. Like really sick, as this is one of the worst colds I’ve had in years. And because the practice requires a full four weeks of being symptom-free prior to surgery (which makes sense given the need for a safe intubation), my surgeon will be gone by then. So, I’m now starting the process over for the most part.

As for the book, obviously, the release is delayed still until June 25th. Originally, the surgery was part of that delay, but the truth is, there are also other more personal factors involved, things that I’m not ready to talk about publicly. What I can say is that the Barrenmire Lights collection is still coming, it’s still going to be completed, and I’m incredibly proud of what it’s becoming.

Current Reads & Recommendations

Sticking both of these subtopics together this week, as I’m still slowly working my way through Lady in the Tower by Alison Weir. It’s a dense and detailed nonfiction dive into Anne Boleyn’s final days, and although I haven’t had much reading time lately, this book has continued to keep my interest whenever I get a moment to sit with it.

I'm also still working on getting through the audiobook Cleopatra: A Life by Stacy Schiff. Cleopatra’s story isn't one of those historical legacies that I’ve been drawn to specifically, but the Egyptian aspect of her life intrigues me. I've always loved Egyptian mythology and reading about the discoveries of pharaohs and the polytheistic side of their religion.

As for reading recommendations, I don’t have a personal rec from my own finished reads this week, but I do want to highlight a fellow indie author I recently discovered on TikTok: David D. Meyers. He’s a sci-fi author, and while sci-fi isn’t typically my go-to genre, I’m always drawn in when there’s tech or cybersecurity involved, and that is exactly what caught my attention with his upcoming book, Coded, the first in The Connection Saga. He’s currently looking for ARC readers for its release at the end of this month, so if sci-fi with a hacker twist sounds like your kinda thing, go check him out.

As someone who loves weaving tech and the darker side of the internet into my own romance novels (see Can’t Control or the upcoming third book in The Barrenmire Lights), I’m especially excited to see how he handles those themes.

Finds Unrelated to Reading

I'm a busybody, and I plan almost everything. Everything that I can control is planned—even if the train falls off the rails at some point, at least I know everything that was supposed to happen so that I can adjust for the future.

I’ve mapped out the next several months ahead of time regarding to-do lists and my budget, not just because I need to stay organized, but because it gives me a sense of control in the middle of the chaos. Even if the plans shift (of course, they usually do), having structure gives me a satisfying illusion of control.

I also like to get things done, which means that my "days off" aren't really off at all. Between working a full-time job, being an indie author, and trying to take care of my health, the to-do list never ends. But planning things out makes the chaos feel a little more manageable.

And maybe that’s the point. We don’t always need the plan to go perfectly—we just need a reason to keep moving forward.

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New Release Date for Hollow: June 25th

AJ Hotz — Mon, 19 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Septoplasty & Hollow

Last week was missed, as decisions were in limbo until I received updates from my beta readers and updates about my upcoming surgery.

I’m due to have a septoplasty with a bilateral turbinectomy soon, and the preparations for it are interfering with me being able to release my book on my birthday like I’d hoped—juggling this, my book, and my full-time job means that there are not enough hours in the day to do it all in time. My beta readers are also not done, as only one has gotten back to me with comments and suggestions so far. Due to both of these events, my book is going to be released on June 25th instead.

While it’s not ideal to push back the release, I’m telling myself that giving this book the time it needs to be its best version is far more important than rushing to meet a date; I certainly do not need to be exhausted with very little sleep while I recover just to meet a deadline. I know June 25th might not have the same symbolic meaning as a birthday release, but honestly, I’m excited to share this story no matter what day it lands on. This book—and this collection as a whole—deserve the same care and patience I try to give to everything I create.

I’m actually really excited about my upcoming surgery, and no, I am not being sarcastic. I know that might sound odd, since most people tend to feel anxious about surgeries, especially something to the face like a septoplasty with a bilateral turbinectomy. But for me, this has been a long time coming. I’ve had few surgeries in my life, but nothing quite this major, but the thought of finally being able to breathe normally again is so exciting. It’s something I’ve needed for a long time, and the fact that it’s finally happening feels like a huge step forward—not just for my health, but for my overall quality of life. So instead of nerves, I’m counting down with anticipation. I wish the day would come sooner.

Needless to say, this means that I won’t be updating as frequently on social media during my recovery. As much as I love sharing parts of my life and processes with you all, I don’t think anyone needs a play-by-play of what I look like post-surgery (trust me, you’re not missing much). That said, I’m planning ahead so I can still stay connected during that time—I’ve been prepping videos in advance, including updates for the book release and a few teasers. I’m also planning to share the story behind my nose and what led to this surgery, because it’s honestly a journey worth telling. I think some of you might relate to it more than you’d expect, especially when I tell you that this is something I should have had done years ago.

The prep and recovery planning have shifted my schedule more than expected, but that just means I’m using this extra time to really polish up the book. Line edits, consistency checks, last-minute revisions—it’s all happening behind the scenes while I wait on the remaining beta reader feedback. In the end, the delay is helping me make sure the book is published exactly how I want it.

Current Reads

Reading has taken a backseat lately, which happens sometimes, especially since I'm getting ready for surgery and editing a book. That said, I do have a couple of books lined up and in progress.

I'm slowly making my way through Lady in the Tower by Alison Weir. It's good, but honestly, from what I've read so far, you could probably just watch that documentary I mentioned a couple weeks ago, The Last Days of Anne Boleyn, because it's clear that a lot of the quotes in here from historians were taken directly from the historians in that documentary. Which doesn't mean it isn't good! So, feel free to check it out of this era of history interests you like it does me.

I’ve also borrowed the audiobook of Cleopatra: A Life by Stacy Schiff from my local library through Libby, though I haven’t started it yet. I’m hoping it’ll be a good change of pace and a way to get in some reading while I’m prepping things behind the scenes or recovering from surgery.

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Final Edits in Progress

AJ Hotz — Mon, 5 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

"Final Drafts" Process

While I wait on feedback from my beta readers—edits, suggestions, and answers to my questionnaire—I’m using the time wisely. Right now, I’m deep in revisions: adding scenes, tightening up dialogue, and checking for consistencies. I’m also beginning a full line edit, making sure every sentence flows the way it should, including repetition of words (because when it happens, it's on purpose). I should be finished with both edits before my beta readers are done. It gives me a cushion to re-evaluate their feedback with a fresh mind when it arrives, rather than scrambling to make changes last-minute.

Since I'm on the topic, let me tell you about my "final drafts process"--yes, plural, final drafts. When I finish my first draft, I don't begin this process until after I have read over and edited or added to my first draft at least three times. Specifically, this means that each chapter, once completed, has been read over at least three times. Then, I begin my final drafts process.

This begins with another edit, specifically for verifying consistencies. I'm not exactly "editing" per se, simply checking consistencies (making sure the clothes that my characters are wearing are the clothes they are still wearing on the same day regardless of chapter changes, making sure my timeline of events makes sense for the characters' stories, making sure that my character's eye color isn't changing from on chapter to another unless it makes sense, and other nick-picky pieces like those).

Next step is where I insert additions. These are things that may have taken up more than a few sentences of space that I wanted to add while I was performing earlier edits, but I didn't want to stray from my focus on those types of edits. So, this is an additional set of revisions that I do where I am only adding to the plot--not editing.

This is followed by a very particular and crucial line edit. I have a tendency to forget little words in sentences when I'm writing. In order to do this, I change the font while I edit. I used to only change the format in which I edit, but after hearing another author talk about how he changes the font and finds additional errors, I've started separating the two. This edit only changes the font. Formatting edits come later. This is the edit I am in right now.

By this point, my beta readers have most likely gotten back to me, and the next step is to correct the minor errors they may have found (as long as I didn't already correct them during my line edit) and add or remove scenes or dialog based on their suggestions or feedback from the questionnaire (again, provided I didn't already do that when I was inserting additions earlier).

Next, I perform what is called a "Style Guide" check. I explained this in a Tiktok video last year, so I won't go into great detail here, as this week's blog post is already getting pretty long, but I encourage you to check out the video if you are a fellow author.

The next three steps are the final stretch! I read the entire book over once more in PDF form, correctly formatted, as this will be the type of file that gets sent to whoever is printing my book for the physical copies. One more read over in ebook form, specifically Kindle, as that is who I use for ebooks. And one last final reread once I receive the physical proof.

Most of the time, by the time I've reached the Kindle ebook part of this process, no more edits or revisions need to be done.

Reading Recommendations

If you’re in the mood for something dark, supernatural, and unapologetically fierce, I highly recommend Slewfoot by Brom. I read this book in May of last year for the first time, and it stuck with me so much that I immediately bought a hard copy for my personal collection—which, by the way, the hard copy includes Brom’s artwork of the main characters. This man isn’t just a phenomenal writer; he is an incredible visual artist, too.

Slewfoot is a witchy, slow-burn revenge story that blends historical fiction with dark fantasy. It’s a story about power, fear, freedom, and what happens when a woman—deemed dangerous and unnatural by those around her—fights back. While it’s a fictional tale, it absolutely belongs in the same breath as the real-life stories of complex women navigating brutal, unjust systems. If you're someone who loves a powerful female lead, otherworldly elements, and a narrative that builds to a fiery climax, this book is definitely for you.

Current Reads

Speaking of powerful women in history, thanks to my dive a couple weeks ago in my Libby history, this week’s current read is Lady in the Tower by Alison Weir, a nonfiction deep dive into the final days of Anne Boleyn (and another book that I apparently borrowed years ago and never read). I’ve always had an interest in nonfiction, particularly when it centers on specific historical eras. If you're curious about the Tudor era, or if you love reading about strong, complex women in history who were dealt an unfair hand, this one might be worth adding to your TBR.

TV Shows & Movies

Related to the above current read, I can’t even remember how I stumbled across the documentary The Last Days of Anne Boleyn, but ever since I watched it, I’ve been completely fascinated by her story. There’s something about Anne’s life and the way her legacy has been shaped and reshaped through time that really intrigues me, especially hearing about all of the theories from historians regarding certain aspects, whose opinions all seem to differ in some way.

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One Week Closer to Release Day

AJ Hotz — Tue, 29 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Beta Readers Ready!

Okay, so I’m a day late posting this week’s blog, but again it’s for a very good reason. The last two days have been entirely consumed with final touch-ups on my next book, and as of this afternoon, Beta Reader copies have officially been sent out!

This stage always feels like a strange mix of nerves and excitement. You work so hard on something for months (sometimes years), and suddenly you’re handing it off to someone else, hoping they’ll love it or at least tell you what needs to be adjusted before it goes out into the world. It’s a vulnerable position, but it’s also one of the most energizing parts of the process for me. It means the book is getting real.

Unfortunately, this also means that I have to say goodbye to these characters soon, and that's one of the hardest parts of the process. Of course, I'm looking forward to writing about the next set of characters in The Barrenmire Lights, so that cushions the fall, but it's not always easy to say goodbye, even if I am going to have little bits of each of the other characters from the books scattered throughout.

I felt this same way when I finally hit 'publish' after finalizing Love: The One Who Leaves. It helps that I was looking forward to finally getting to Hollow: The One Who Remains, but I still had to say goodbye. Right now, I'm going through the same kind of emotions with Hollow. I don't want to say goodbye to these characters, but I'm truly looking forward to working on the next book in the series. The title is chosen, but readers will have to wait!

If you want to get an early peek at one of my books and be part of the process, now is the time. ARC reader signups are open! If you're interested in receiving an advance copy once it's ready, feel free to reach out to me on my website, Instagram, or TikTok. ARC copies will be e-ARCs sent through Book Funnel. You do not have to have a Book Funnel account in order to receive an ARC.

Current Reads

After last week's scroll through my Libby memories, one of the books I decided to pick up was The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business. This book was HUGE, absolutely hugely popular in the mid-2010s. I actually attempted to borrow this book at one point around that time, which is why Libby probably told me that I borrowed it, however, I don't think I did. I'm pretty sure I was put on the wait list, and the list was so long that I most likely gave up and told myself that I'd pick up this book another time. Well, that other time is now!

I'm also still currently reading through, for the third time, Fighting for Evie by Taylor Delvaux, but I've put this book mostly on pause at this time. I'll get through this read-through of it eventually, but I'm focusing my efforts this week on books that I've never read before.

Reading Recommendations

Published the same year as The Power of Habit was Trafficked by Sophie Hayes. I want to recommend this book, but it comes with a major warning. This book is real, non-fiction, and it should be rather obvious why and what this book contains. This is a serious read, but it truly is remarkable and almost inspiring in a way, told from the perspective of a victim. Sophie Hayes really shows what happens when people are trafficked, and it doesn't happen in the way some people think.

There is a one-star review on Goodreads that I believe explains very well just out of touch some people are with what it means to be trafficked. Sure, there are the stereotypical ways of human trafficking, but there are sleeker and more modern ways that it is being done by using powerful manipulation on the victims. I won't post the one-star review here, because I will not give that person any more attention or time, but I want you to keep in mind that if you decide to read this book, trafficking does not always happen in the way the media and movies portray.

And if you want a fictional story that has a brief focus on what happens when someone is trafficked, check out Love: The One Who Leaves by yours truly. Yes, it is fictional, and no, it certainly does not portray trafficking in the way the stereotypical media does or in the way Trafficked by Sophie Hayes does, but it is a form of sex trafficking. The book does not place a heavy focus on the how or the exact story that happens, as this is a romance novel with dark themes, but it is a story to consider. Manipulation takes many forms.

Finds Unrelated to Reading

In an attempt to stray from the heavy topics above, and keep this section relatively unrelated to reading, I created a Tiktok video last year from a trending sound, and it actually took me a while to think about what I was going to say using that sound. But I found it, and this created an entirely new goal for me someday: signing copies of my books at a Black Hat Convention.

If you’re not familiar, it’s one of the biggest cybersecurity conferences in the world, packed with hackers, researchers, and tech minds. Some background: a black hat is a hacker who uses his skills for malicious purposes, whereas a white hat is a hacker who uses his skills for good with the permission of the software/website/hardware owner. Seems kind of funny that it's called a Black Hat Convention, right?

So, what does this have to do with me? Well, two of my four books (or soon to be four, once I finish the third in The Barrenmire Lights collection at the end of this year) explore elements of technology and the dark web, albeit through a fictional, romantic lens. It might sound like an odd pairing, but I’ve always been fascinated by the hidden corners of the internet and how they impact our lives, relationships, and fears. And I love researching new technology and trying to keep up with the news of the tech world.

Someday, I’d love to sign books at a Black Hat Convention. It’s a stretch, yeah, but how cool would it be to bridge that gap between fiction and real-world tech?

TV Shows & Movies

In relation to the above section, I give you: Spycraft and True Spies.

If you’re at all fascinated by covert ops, real-life spy stories, and the psychological edge of espionage, then the True Spies podcast is for you. Each episode dives into the minds of actual spies and the missions that shaped their lives and the world. The narration is cinematic, intense, and honestly, it gives you that perfect blend of history, intrigue, and storytelling.

if you're more of a visual person, Spycraft on Netflix is worth checking out. It’s a documentary-style series that explores the tools and tactics used in modern spy work, from surveillance tech to psychological manipulation and even poisons. Some of it is jaw-dropping, especially when you start thinking about how this technology filters into fiction—and how close some fictional stories actually get to the truth. And yes, I do weave some of these pieces of technology into my books, while also using this as inspiration to create my own tech.

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A Week of Rediscovery

AJ Hotz — Mon, 21 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Memory Lane with Libby

I ended up taking an unexpected trip down memory lane all thanks to Libby. I was scrolling through my borrowing history and realized just how many books I’ve borrowed over the past six years since I first downloaded the app. What really surprised me, though, was the number of titles I’d completely forgotten about — books that I somehow never logged into Goodreads, and in some cases, don’t even remember borrowing.

I’m sure, in every case, I either started reading them and DNF’d for one reason or another or I never started them at all. It’s funny seeing those forgotten titles sitting in my history, like little reminders of past reading intentions I apparently abandoned.

One surprise in particular was a Sarah Dessen book that I somehow completely skipped over. I have no idea how that happened, especially since Sarah Dessen has been a long-time favorite of mine when it comes to new adult romance, ever since I read Dreamland. Her books were a huge part of my reading routine for years, so realizing there was one floating around that I borrowed and never even cracked open was a huge surprise. I’m planning to go back and give it the attention it didn’t get the first time around.

It’s always interesting to see what past-me was curious about, even if present-me has no intention of reading that book again or getting involved in that hobby again. Some titles sparked the, “I meant to finish that!” kind of reaction, while others had me rolling my eyes at my reading choices, wondering what sort of mood I must’ve been in at the time I picked that out.

Current Reads

I’ve fallen into the habit of letting books linger on my “currently reading” list longer than I’d like, so I chose to pick back up a couple of these books for this upcoming week, starting today. I’ve picked The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen and Trafficked by Sophie Hayes.

The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen has been sitting quietly on my Libby app for far too long. I honestly can’t believe I let this one slip by, especially considering how much I’ve always loved her writing. Sarah Dessen’s books played a major role in my reading world during my late teen years, and they’ve always had this perfect mix of emotional depth, self-discovery, and a little bit of romance. I’ve hardly started, but I can already feel that familiar pull her stories always seem to have, the kind that’s equal parts comforting and thought-provoking.

Trafficked by Sophie Hayes is a tough but important read. It’s the kind of book that weighs heavy because it’s based on true events, following Sophie’s experience as a victim of human trafficking. Sometimes it’s hard to sit with something so emotionally heavy, but it’s also a reminder of why stories like this matter. And as a fan of true crime, human trafficking has always piqued my interest in a way that I feel like I've never truly been able to express without sounding like a weirdo or a creep or something.

Reading Recommendations

This trip down memory lane has also sparked for me some new reading recs for you all! If you’re looking for something emotionally gripping or dark and unsettling, I’ve got a couple worth adding to your TBR.

One that immediately comes to mind is Dreamland by Sarah Dessen. This was the first book I read by Sarah Dessen, and it left an impression that’s hard to shake even years later. While a lot of her books lean into themes of self-discovery, family, and romance, Dreamland goes deeper into the difficult side of relationships, especially when it comes to toxic and abusive relationships. It’s written with that signature Dessen style — relatable, emotional, and easy to connect with — but the story is heavy, raw, and honest.

Another one I recommend is Into The Darkest Corner by Elizabeth Haynes. Haynes dives deep into the mind of her previously abused main character, exploring trauma and survival in a way that feels disturbingly real. The writing style pulls you into the paranoia and fear the character faces, and you’ll find yourself questioning everyone and everything along the way. I will warn you now: don't expect an extremely climactic ending. The ending is real and raw, just as the emotions and situations in the book are real and raw.

Finds Unrelated to Reading

Small update: I’ve decided to drop the word recent from this section. The truth is, the things I share here aren’t always new or newly discovered. Sometimes they’re just things I’ve stumbled back into, or little thoughts, observations, or finds that feel worth mentioning. From now on, it’s simply Finds Unrelated to Reading, no expiration dates or timeframes attached.

I could listen to nothing while reading or writing, but I love having some kind of background noise, and if you're like me, that background noise cannot be music with lyrics or a TV show. I recommend this app I found called Sleep Sounds. It's only $3.49 per year right now for the premium version, and premium is so worth it. I'd pay more for it if it was more (as long as it didn't go over $10). The sounds on it are the more repetitive type of white noise sounds, like "Ocean," "Fire," "Airplane," but there are so many of them, and they are so unique!

Customizing the provided sounds or creating my own custom sound are my favorite things to do. I've already turned the "Night" sound into sounds of the bayou, and I've created a custom sound I named "Writing Outside the Cafe" that includes people talking, car passing, typing, and faded cafe music in the background.

TV Shows & Movies

Another update: I’ve officially decided to drop the word recent from this section going forward as well, because truly, half the shows and movies I mention here aren’t new releases, and sometimes they’re not even new to me, just something I’ve circled back to or finally got around to watching. From here on out, it’s simply TV Shows & Movies, whether it’s new, old, or something I’ve watched a hundred times.

This week, I want to highlight a show that actually lines up really well with the kinds of books mentioned this week: Disappeared.

Disappeared is a true crime series that focuses on missing persons cases, most of which remain unsolved. The show does an excellent job of walking you through the circumstances leading up to each disappearance, highlighting the heartache of the families involved, and pointing out the strange details that leave you wondering how some of these cases have stayed cold for so long.

If you enjoy the deep-dive storytelling of true crime, especially when it ties into real-world mystery and human psychology, this one is worth adding to your watchlist.

And believe me, the reasons for the disappearances and the circumstances leading up to the missing victims are all unique, just as every criminal case is unique.

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One Week Late... But For Good Reason!

AJ Hotz — Mon, 14 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Beta Readers, It's Almost Time

I missed last week’s blog post, and honestly, I almost debated skipping this week, too. But the truth is, the silence hasn’t been for lack of things happening. Quite the opposite, actually. Lately, all of my creative energy has been tied up in final edits and marketing for my next book, which has been both exciting and exhausting. This part of the process always feels like the final sprint of a marathon, where I can see the finish line, but every step takes a little more focus and a little more determination.

I’ve been deep in the trenches, making these last few adjustments, double-checking all the little details, and preparing copies for my beta readers. It’s that strange place between “I’m almost done” and “this could still use one more work.” I want this story to be the best it can be, and my betas deserve a version that I feel confident in, even if I’ll still obsess over every line the moment I hit send.

Once the beta readers are done and have sent me their suggestions and I’ve made additional edits, it will be time for the ARC readers. And if you’ve been following along and would like to be an early reader, I’d love to have you on the list! Whether you reach out to me here on my website, Tiktok, or Instagram, don’t be shy! I’m always excited to connect with new and familiar faces, especially when it comes to sharing a story that’s so close to being ready for the world.

Current Reads

Last blog post, I said that I was determined to finally finish Filthy Rich Santas by Eva Ashwood... but I did not. Now, this week with only 21% left to go, I can see the end in sight, and I’ve made it my goal to wrap it up again. Once I’m done, I’ll be swapping genres entirely and picking up The Room Where It Happened by John Bolton. This is completely outside of any one of my usual reading genres, but I’m looking to mix things up a bit. I’m curious to see how I’ll feel about it once I dive in, and I’m looking forward to something entirely new. I'm typically always reading two books at one time, both different genres or subgenres. For instance, right now I'm reading one fluffy romance and one diet dark romance. Next will be a dark romance and a non-fiction memoir.

Once I finish Fighting for Evie by Taylor Delvaux, I’ve already lined up my next read: The Hunt by Kristin Buoni. I’ve been hearing about this one for a while now, especially from readers who love their dark romance with a little more bite, and the premise has been sitting in the back of my mind since the moment I read the blurb. From what I gather, it’s the kind of story that walks the line between survival and obsession, packed with characters I’ll either love or hate, and plenty of morally gray decisions along the way. Which, let’s be real, is basically my catnip. I’m really looking forward to reading this one, especially since I’ve been in the mood for something a little more intense.

Not to mention, the cover for this book, The Hunt, has changed, and truly, the reason that I decided to purchase a digital copy in the first place is because of the controversy that the booktok community was upset about. Booktokers were comparing it to The Ritual by Shanel Tessier, which I suppose could easily be argued for the original AI-generated cover. However, the author changed the cover. Whether the reason for this change was because of the upset with booktok readers or if the first cover was simply a stand-in for the one to come, I think it was a good decision. The new book cover keeps the same colors and general tone of the original without looking too closely to an incredibly popular author’s book within the booktok community.

Something that I think was particularly cruel and uncalled for was the fact that there were people going on goodreads and Amazon and leaving negative ratings, like one-star ratings, on The Hunt months before publishing, just because of the initial book cover. That is exactly the reason that I pre-ordered that book, because that was extremely unnecessary and mean.

But if you want my opinion on book covers, specifically an issue like this one between those two book covers, it isn't an issue. There are so many book covers that someone could argue are exactly the same or almost the same or one was inspired by the other, but truly, I don't think it matters as much as some people think. Would it be nice if everyone had an original idea for their book cover? Absolutely, and I think that my book cover designer does a fantastic job at catching exactly what I'm looking for while also being as unique as possible. But all the same, sometimes book covers just look similar, and it's okay.

Recent Finds Unrelated to Reading

Not so much a “recent find,” but instead, something that I have noticed regarding social media’s influence on networking. Every time I hear the word “networking,” my brain immediately jumps to the same image: those old-school networking parties where people gather on some fluffy rooftop, dressed just professional enough to be uncomfortable, drink in hand, making small talk with strangers in hopes of making connections. I’m not even sure if people actually enjoyed those events or if everyone was just pretending to. Either way, that’s the picture that always pops into my mind.

But the funny thing is, nowadays networking is almost entirely online. Whether it’s social media, Discord servers, groups on Facebook, or messaging someone based on their interests that align with yours, the concept of networking has shifted so much that the word feels a little outdated. I still catch myself hesitating to use it, as if the word belongs in a different era, even though the reality is that I network more now than I ever did at any in-person event, especially when reaching out to those I interview for my Medium page.

Honestly, I think the shift has made it easier for people like me, who are more introverted or who just aren’t built for that in-person social shuffle. Online networking allows for a little more space, a little more thought, and a little more time to decide what you are going to say. You get to skip the awkward small talk stage and connect over shared interests, mutual support, and actual conversation. So, even though the word still triggers visions of awkward handshakes and business cards, I’ve learned to appreciate the way networking has evolved. It’s just another reminder that meaningful connections can happen anywhere, even behind a screen.

Recent Movies & TV Shows

I recently started rewatching The Haunting of Hill House and honestly, it’s just as good as the first time around. I forgot how well this show balances unsettling horror with deep, emotional storytelling, and throws out the meaningless jump-scares. The way it explores grief, family, and trauma under the surface of all the supernatural stuff is what really sticks with me. Easily one of those shows you notice more and more details about the second time through.

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The Great Grieving

AJ Hotz — Mon, 31 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Hollow: The One Who Remains [Update]

I’ve been deep in marketing mode for my upcoming book, Hollow: The One Who Remains, which is set to release at the end of May—most likely on my birthday. This book is the second in The Barrenmire Lights standalone collection, and it’s one that’s been particularly close to my heart. Though, I believe each of these books will get better and better as I write and release them.

The story follows two best friends whose bond was unbreakable, a love that was meant to last, until a tragic accident took him away. But he’s still here, lingering in the spaces that they shared through the years. Is there a way to bring him back? Or is love, even in death, meant to remain unfinished?

This book is haunting, emotional, and a tragic romance with HEA. If you’ve been following me on Instagram or Tiktok, you’ve probably seen a few teasers already. There’s plenty more to come as we get closer to release day.

This book is heavy on grief and loss, just as the first book released in The Barrenmire Lights, Love: The One Who Leaves. Grief doesn’t follow a timeline. It doesn’t wait for anniversaries or significant dates; it just exists, quietly in the background. A few months ago, I found myself thinking about my best friend, as I do every day, but something about that day made the memories heavier. A song played—one about asking for forgiveness after losing a friend—and it brought everything back: the guilt, the regret, the ache of knowing I'd never see him again.

He was always there for me, the kind of friend who never wavered, never stopped caring, even when life pulled us in different directions. But when I had the chance to be there for him, I wasn’t. I made excuses. I let fear and avoidance keep me from reconnecting. And then, one day, I got the call that he was gone.

I didn’t feel like I had the right to grieve him, as if I'd obviously given up on our friendship. But I hadn't. I always thought about him, but I was in a terrible spot in my life at the time. So, I went to the wake, to the funeral, and to an event held in his honor, but each time, I felt like an outsider, like I had lost my place in his story, because I hadn’t been there when it mattered most. Even now, years later, the weight of that regret hasn’t lifted. I don’t know if it ever will. I hope, somehow, that he knew how much I loved him, even when I didn’t say it enough.

The memorial piece I wrote for him can be found here.

Current Reads

I’m still trailing through Fighting for Evie by Taylor Delvaux, and even though I still have mixed feelings about the writing style, I’m fully invested in the MMCs. The sporadic pacing and uneven scene depth can be a little frustrating—some moments feel like they need more while others drag—but that hasn’t stopped me from coming back to it.

What keeps me hooked, as always mentioned, are the MMCs. Gunnar and Pierce are just perfect. Pierce’s brooding intensity and Gunnar’s deep connection with Evie still get me. And then there’s Beck, the absolute sweetheart of the group, who balances them out. Even with its predictable plot and some writing quirks that don’t quite work for me, the character dynamics are what make this book worth sticking with.

I’m determined to finish Filthy Rich Santas by Eva Ashwood this week. Even though the holiday season is very much over, I’ve never been one to limit my holiday spirit to just December. I’ve definitely had my fair share of Christmas music and hot chocolate in the middle of summer. So really, finishing this book now feels perfectly on-brand for me.

Reading Recommendations

I recently picked up the 100th-anniversary edition of The Great Gatsby by F Scott Fitzgerald complete with the original cover. Something about Fitzgerald’s exploration of wealth, obsession, and the illusion of the American Dream resonated with me, even back in high school as required reading. His prose is stunning, the characters flawed, and the themes timeless. Needless to say, I'm looking forward to reading this one again. If you’ve never given Gatsby a chance or want to experience it outside of a classroom setting, I highly recommend it. Some books lose their magic when over-analyzed, but this one? I think not.

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Disney & Deep Dives

AJ Hotz — Mon, 24 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Required Reading Woes

It’s funny—writing is my passion, and I genuinely believe I’m good at it (not that I’m trying to boast, but every author believes they’re good at what they do or they wouldn’t publish anything, and yes, of course, there is always room for improvement). Yet, back in school, English was the subject that was a constant struggle for me. Not the grammar or the essays (I could handle those fine), but the required reading.

There was something about being told what to read that immediately took all the fun out of reading. It didn’t matter if the book was a classic or if other students thought it was a great read. If it was assigned, I dreaded it. Maybe it was the way these books were dissected in ways that stripped them of their magic, turning them into monotonous assignments rather than stories to get lost in.

That said, there are a few exceptions. I actually enjoyed some of the required reading—a variety from Edgar Allan Poe, The Great Gatsby by F Scott Fitzgerald, and Hamlet by William Shakespeare. I also appreciated A Modest Proposal by Jonathan Swift, and I only separate this from the others because of its context, message, and year it was written (1792). Looking back, these writings make sense to me now. Those stories were dark, dramatic, and full of flawed characters, which is exactly the kind of reading (and writing) I gravitate toward today. Not to mention A Modest Proposal being so sick and twisted with its context but serving a strong and impactful message for the time.

Even so, I sincerely hope my books never become required reading in school. Granted, with my novels, I can’t imagine smutty romance will ever be on the required reading list for high schools or colleges, but even so, there have been articles, like A Modest Proposal, that turn into required reading, and I write plenty of articles on Medium. Even if the themes are meaningful or relatable, the moment reading is assigned for a grade, it loses something for me. The experience of discovering a story on your own terms—connecting with it because you want to, not because you have to—is what makes reading so powerful. I’d hate for my work to be stripped of that magic. It’s like cookies that don’t get baked with love; they’re just not the same.

Reading Recommendations

No official recommendation this week, but I’d love to hear from you! What’s a romance novel that gives you flashbacks to required reading in the best (or worst) way? Hit me up with recommendations on Tiktok, Instagram, or even on here through my contact page—this goes directly to my email.

Current Reads

I’m still making my way through Filthy Rich Santas and Love Hard by Eva Ashwood, but if you haven’t noticed, reading hasn’t exactly been my top priority lately. That said, I finally got my hands on A Touch of Darkness after waiting nearly 10 weeks on hold at the library.

I’ve been hesitant to start it, though. Retellings can be hit or miss for me, especially when a book outright tells me what it’s retelling (in this case, Hades and Persephone). I prefer discovering those connections and themes organically rather than having them spelled out upfront. And if you’ve been a Tiktok follower for a while, then you know that I don’t like when things are too clearly spelled out for the readers; I don’t think it’s necessary or helpful for the reader if you’re a good writer, but also, and this is a big one, everyone is going to take something different from your writing than you. Things shouldn’t always be directly stated in black and white; let readers figure things out for themselves. So, while I want to give it a fair shot, I’m also wary of how much I’ll actually enjoy it. We’ll see how it goes.

Recent Finds Unrelated to Reading

This week, I’ve fallen down a bit of a YouTube spiral with two channels I can’t stop watching: DFBGuide and Megan Anne. They’re wildly different from each other, but both have been my go-to for background noise and deep dives.

If you’re even remotely interested in Disney parks, DFBGuide is a must-watch. They break down everything from the best snacks and hidden gems to major park updates and budget-friendly tips. I’ve actually been subscribed to this channel for a long time, but every once in a while, I watch as many videos of theirs in a row as I can—specifically anything about rides, good food, and festivals. Even though I’m not currently planning a trip, I still find myself watching their videos for the fun of it. There’s something oddly comforting about hearing all the details of what’s new in Disney World and living vicariously through their videos. Their enthusiasm makes it even better. Every time I watch, I start mentally planning an imaginary Disney trip I won’t be taking anytime soon—but hey, it’s fun to dream.

On the absolute opposite side of the spectrum, Megan Anne has been another obsession for me this week. She covers everything from deep dives into influencers, her personal journey of weight loss surgery, and talking about more personal commentary on the weird, messy world of social media. I love her delivery—she’s soft yet blunt and has a way of breaking things down that keeps you hooked. One of the videos that really stood out to me was her take on Anna O’Brien of GlitterandLazers, which had me thinking about what social media tends to turn people into depending on the reason they do it. Sure, attention is obvious, and money is a secondary bonus, but it’s very clear when someone on social media is strictly in it for the money. Overall, I appreciate Meghan’s approach to covering topics with a mix of humor and depth.

Between these two, my YouTube watch history has been a chaotic mix of Disney food guides and internet deep dives, but honestly, if you know me, this is normal.

Recent Movies & TV Shows

I haven’t had the chance to watch any new movies lately, but I’ve been watching Survivor Season 47 (the most recently completed season). It’s been a great way to catch up on the drama and strategy, and I’m loving how the game keeps evolving. Survivor always manages to pull me back in with its unpredictable twists and compelling cast. And I just love Jeff Probst; he’s such an awesome host, and I’m not surprised he’s been the only host this whole time!

I’ve also been recommended Severance, but I haven’t started it yet. The premise has me intrigued, especially with its mind-bending mix of office life and psychological thriller vibes. I’m hoping to dive into it soon once I have more time to truly focus on the plot.

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Book Bundle Giveaway

AJ Hotz — Sun, 9 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Giveaway

I mailed out 4 book bundles this weekend! Granted, two of them were giveaway winners, but that doesn’t make it any less exciting. There’s something very fulfilling knowing that my work is making its way into other people’s hands. Whether they’re reading it for the first time or adding it to their collection for later, it’s a surreal feeling. I’m sure I’ll do another giveaway soon—I love the idea of spreading my books to more readers, and who doesn’t love a surprise book bundle?

You can also find my book bundles available for purchase on my Etsy: HotzSpot

Current Reads

Fighting for Evie by Taylor Delvaux: I couldn’t decide at first if I liked this author’s work. The writing style is very sporadic—some scenes that feel important to the plot could use more depth, while others that don’t contribute much to the storyline seem to drag on. It’s a little frustrating because that extra detail could have been placed elsewhere for a better flow instead of placed in a scene that doesn't do much for the story.

That said, this is my third readthrough of this book. What won me over are the male main characters. I am obsessed with Gunnar and Pierce—they have such strong personalities that keep me hooked. I love me a brooding male main character like Pierce, and I love the caring history between Evie and Gunnar. And then there’s Beck, who is just a total sweetheart. I think part of what’s keeping me invested in this book is seeing how their dynamics unfold. Even with the writing style being hit or miss for me, and the plot being rather predictable, the characters make it worth the read.

Recent Finds Unrelated to Reading

I recently stumbled upon a new-to-me YouTuber, Eleanor Neale, who covers true crime, and I absolutely love her storytelling. Her accent (which I think is Scottish?) makes her videos even more engaging, and she has a way of breaking down cases that keeps me hooked.

One video that really stood out to me was her coverage of the Skylar Neese case. I remember when that case first happened, and it was chilling then—but revisiting it now, with all the extra details and breakdowns, makes it even more unsettling and simply horrifying with what her friends did to her. The way Eleanor pieces everything together, from the crime itself to the investigation and the eerie social media posts afterward, is so well done. If you’re into true crime and haven’t watched her yet, I’d definitely recommend checking her out.

Recent Movies & TV Shows

Right now, I’m watching Survivor! I haven’t started the newest season yet, but I’m catching up on the most recently completed one so I can go into the new season fully up to date. There’s something about Survivor that never gets old—the strategy, the social game, the sheer unpredictability. Even though every season has the same rules, hidden idols, and voting a player off at the end of each episode, it's still unpredictable to me. After all these years, it still manages to surprise me.

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Writing, Resting, and Reality TV

AJ Hotz — Sun, 2 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Sick Days

I successfully wrote five articles this weekend! I suppose it helps that I have been super sick with low energy. As a busybody, this is very unlike me. I don’t spend much time sitting around writing. As much as I love writing, I love feeling like a physically productive person, and I spend most of my waking time on my feet getting something done around the house—and there is always a lot to do around my house all the time.

Clearly, being under the weather has forced me to slow down, but I’ve been able to channel all of my energy into writing instead. It’s funny how that happens—when life forces a change of pace, sometimes you end up being productive in an entirely different way. Even though I usually struggle to sit still for long, I have to admit it felt good to get ahead on my articles. I’m going to be putting out five articles on Medium, instead of only three, which has been my usual. Maybe this forced writing due to low energy being sick will make me want to publish five articles per week every week.

That said, I’m definitely ready to feel better and get back to my usual routine. There’s a certain restlessness that comes with being stuck inside, and I have a working list of things I need to take care of once I have the energy again. If you know me, then you know that I always have a list of things that need to be done, and I like my list to be as small as possible, so I’m always completing items on the list.

But for now, I’m trying to remind myself that rest is just as important as work—something I’m not always great at accepting, which is why I’ve done so much writing. Contrary to what it may look like, I know how to relax, but I feel better relaxing once my list is as small it can be for the day.

Reading Recommendations

I’d like to recommend a book that I read at this time last year, since I have not completed any additional books in the last month or two. But last year, I read a 63-page novella called Waiting for Love by Liz Zerkel. I believe this was one of those books that I found on a whim while browsing Kindle Unlimited. 5/5, it’s a fun, short, and sweet read down to the very end. Lex is a sweet dream, and this is absolutely worth the read if you want some good smut and something sweet that’ll make you smile.

I’d recommend a few other books from around this time last year, however, the other books that I finished in February and March 2024 were average 3-star ratings or less. I will not be recommending them, but I will also not be mentioning those here.

Current Reads

I’m still making my way through Filthy Rich Santas by Eva Ashwood, and while the holiday season has long passed, I’m enjoying the over-the-top, indulgent fun of it. Sometimes, a little festive chaos is just what you need, no matter the time of year. As a lover of Christmas, I have definitely celebrated Christmas by listening to holiday music and drinking hot chocolate in June and July.

I’m still making my way through the dark and intense read that is Love Hard by Eva Ashwood. This author has a way of crafting characters that pull you in, and this one is no exception. The tension, the emotions, the chemistry—it’s all there, and I can’t wait to see where the story completes.

Recent Finds Unrelated to Reading

I’ve recently started watching some of the controversial content on Michelle Mana’s YouTube channel, specifically the deep dives into creators like TwoSoulsOneBod, The Wonderland System, Pixielocks, and DissociaDID. Of course, it’s impossible to diagnose someone or claim someone is faking a disorder over the Internet, but it is truly interesting to see these creators present themselves and how they shift over time, seeing the breakdowns and inconsistencies or even too consistent—as in, rehearsed—information.

The internet is full of voices claiming expertise, but at the end of the day, complex conditions can’t be fully understood through TikTok and YouTube. If you’re looking for real insight into mental health, always go to a professional. Don’t get your information about mental health over the Internet from some random person.

Recent Movies & TV Shows

This past week, I’ve been rewatching the most recent season of The Amazing Race and realized that I never actually finished it the first time around. How that happened, I’m unsure, but I’m correcting that now. There’s something about the mix of travel, strategy, and sheer chaos that makes it such a fun and exciting watch. Plus, seeing teams navigate challenges in different countries always makes me want to apply to be a part of the show.

I also just found out that the next season airs on March 5th! Perfect timing to get caught up before a whole new set of teams hit the road. Safe to say, I’ll be tuning in.

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Playlists & Giveaways

AJ Hotz — Mon, 24 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Giveaway

STFUATTDLAGG Smut Book Club featured me as Author of the Week! Two members of the group won a giveaway that I offered—one book bundle for Can’t Control and one book bundle for Love: The One Who Leaves. Oddly enough, one of the winners is partial to Love and the other Can’t Control, so I didn’t have to choose who would get which bundle. Worked out well.

During the week, there was a brief Q&A between me and the members, and one of the members was interested to know if I had any writing playlists. I’ve never offered up my writing playlists, because I didn’t believe readers would actually be interested in it, but I do have one list for each book I have. So, I have posted my playlists for each currently published book on my website.

I have also completed both listings on Etsy for Love: The One Who Leaves. Can't Control will be posted once more of my custom handmade coasters are completed.

Current Reads & Recommendations

Once again, I didn’t get any additional reading done, as I focused far too much on Medium articles this week. I’ve been considering picking up a new book, but with Medium articles and house work that’s needed to be done, I haven’t had much time to read.

I am still in the middle of both Filthy Rich Santas and Love Hard, both by Eva Ashwood, and I did get some reading done for Love Hard. Both books are fantastic; Eva Ashwood never disappoints.

Recent Finds Unrelated to Reading

I’ve watched so much Financial Audit recently that every time I look at my credit card statement at the end of he month, I just hear Calbe Hammer’s voice yelling at me, “$23 in interest every month! What are you doing?!” This also makes me not want to go to places like Starbucks anymore, unless I specifically add it into my budget, which I do not. Granted, I am super grateful for it, because it forces me to make better financial choices.

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Changes in Focus

AJ Hotz — Sun, 16 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Drop in Books, Rise in Articles

This week, I didn’t get to work on my next book release, but I did focus on staying ahead with my article writing schedule, of which I upload 3 articles per week on my Medium page and LinkedIn. I’ve been working on some exciting features, including an interview with a debut author whose book is still in the works. She is such a beautiful soul, and it was a pleasure hearing her story and getting to know her on a deeper level. I also spoke with a glitch artist, which I bet you’ve never heard of, and I’m looking forward to sharing that conversation in an upcoming article. So, keep an eye out for those, as they’re both great reads that I think you’ll really enjoy!

Although it’s always tough to take a break from writing my books, I know getting ahead on my articles will help me stay on track in the long run. My goal for next week is to continue focusing on content creation while finding small pockets of time to squeeze in some novel writing, too. With the changes in my life recently, it’s been an adventure trying to find my new routine.

Current Reads

I didn’t get much reading done this week, but I’m excited to dive back into my current reads. So, no new recommendations this week, but if you’re looking for something engaging, definitely check out Filthy Rich Santas and Love Hard by Eva Ashwood. Both books are fun, steamy, and perfect for anyone looking for an escape with a dramatic and darkly romantic storyline.

I’m still reading Filthy Rich Santas and Love Hard by Eva Ashwood. I’m enjoying the mix of humor, spice, and drama in both stories. While I didn’t make much headway with the books, they’ve definitely been on my mind, and I’m looking forward to finishing them soon.

Oddly enough, I knew I wouldn’t be able to hit a very large reading goal for this year, so I’ve only set myself up for 20 books for the year, significantly less than the past two years’ goals. I knew that this year I would want to set my focus more into writing articles and publishing my next 2 books more than anything else, including reading 50 books or more.

Recent Movies & TV Shows

I finally sat down to watch the new season of Hell’s Kitchen tonight. It’s always such a wild ride with the drama in the kitchen, and I love how it’s both entertaining and exciting to see these chefs push their limits, though I’m certainly no chef. I think that’s partly why I love watching this show; seeing those who are incredibly talented in something I could never do is somehow truly inspiring. I’m looking forward to seeing how this season unfolds, and it’s already been unpredictable. It’s a great reminder of the dedication it takes to succeed in any field, whether it's cooking or writing.

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I'm back!

AJ Hotz — Sun, 9 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Back on the Air

I feel like I just took a season off, but it definitely did not feel like some kind of off-season. If anything, it was an off season, if you know what I mean.

I’ve had to postpone my next book, Hollow, so it will not be published by April, but I will keep you updated on any future dates. It will certainly be published this year, but I no longer plan to have three published books this year, unlike what I was hoping for.

I also missed my last book release, Love. Not truly, but in a sense, I have done no marketing for it since its release. I was clearly hoping this would be more exciting for me, but I’m still planning on making 2025 the next best year of my life; I’m determined. There has obviously been a lot going on in my life that has kept me from keeping up with Tiktok content creation, but I’m looking to get back into as soon as I can. Just trying to get my new routine in place, as so much has changed recently.

Reading Recommendations

Though I’ve been out of touch regarding social media and marketing, I have been reading, and I’ve got three recommendations (six if you separate one of the book series’ I’m recommending).

First up, the Black Rose Kisses series by Eva Ashwood. There are four books in the series: Fight Dirty, Play Rough, Wreak Havoc, and Love Hard. I’m currently in the middle of Love Hard, and it’s been a stellar book series so far. Eva Ashwood never seems to disappoint me. Why choose, mafia vibes, and I am absolutely in love with each of them.

Mated to the Monster by Sarah Spade is definitely next. I’d been wanting to read this book for months, and when I finally got around to it, it did not disappoint! There are a lot of five-star reviews on GoodReads for this one, but most of the one-star reviews talk about how there’s no monster/demon smut in it? But I disagree; there definitely is, and it’s amazing. Not sure if maybe the author put out another version of this after some one-star reviews came out, but regardless, it was definitely worth it, and I’ll be purchasing one of the special edition copies of this one when I get a chance.

Fabric of Our Souls by KM Moronova was absolutely beautiful. I’d put off reading this one for a long time, as there was a series of hers that I stopped reading part of the way through, as it wasn’t resonating with me. But once I gave this one a chance, I couldn’t put it down. I didn’t want to; I wanted to finish this book in one sitting. The ending was absolutely beautiful and unexpected, and I have already purchased a hard copy for my trophy bookshelf. Definitely a reread, highly recommended.

My Current Read

Aside from finishing up Love Hard by Eva Ashwood, I am also in the middle of reading one of her other books, Filthy Rich Santas. I’ll say, it surely is not disappointing, and it is a good read, but it hasn’t resonated with me as much as a few other books I’ve read recently, so it’s been placed on the back burner behind a few other reads. I’ll certainly finish it soon, though.

Recent Finds Unrelated to Reading

I suppose this isn’t so much of a find, but I have decided that I am going to re-roof my house. It’s needed to be done for a while now, and I’m a busybody with a but work ethic, especially in terms of manual labor. And YouTube is the perfect place to learn how to do things like this.

Recent Movies & TV Shows

I’ve recently stopped watching a few TV shows that I was previously into, but I’m sure I’ll et back to a few of them eventually. However, currently, I’ve been watching a ton of Financial Audit with Caleb Hammer on YouTube. Aside from the super good advice that he’s got on his show, it’s also hilarious the way he delivers everything. Some guests have really put themselves in awful situations, but he’s always got some way to help them out. Most of the time, it’s a simple budget he puts together, but most of these guests have never put a budget together, and those who have don’t end up following it.

I love me some trash TV, and I recently started rewatching Daisy of Love. That show is so hilarious! A few of those guys are super awesome and sweet, but most of them are absolutely ridiculous.

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Merch Received & Reading Goals

AJ Hotz — Sun, 22 Dec 2024 00:00:00 +0000

Merchandise has Arrived!

All of my merchandise has arrived for my book bundles! I’ve officially received everything but the books. I’m still waiting for one more proof to arrive, so that I can approve the final hardcover. Due to the artwork that I included in the physical copy, some of them hit the edges of the pages, and I needed to reformat it to make sure that all of the artwork does exactly that. I’d like the copies to be as perfect as they can be.

I’m expecting this (hopefully) final proof to arrive in a couple days. If it’s perfect, I’ll have all of my physical copies here and available by the release date! I also plan to post a few videos on Tiktok of me wrapping and packaging up book bundles.

Reading Recommendations

Okay, as opposed to last week, I’m still internally determined to reach my reading goal for the year, even though there’s only nine more days left in the year and I’ve still got ten books left to read... yeah... I’m sure I won’t make it, not unless I include the many times that I’ve read the entirety of Love: The One Who Leaves. Honestly, I might do that anyway!

As for reading recommendations, I just finished reading the Dark Elite trilogy by Eva Ashwood. 10/10, I’d read it again, and I’m buying a physical copy for my collection. The second book was my favorite of the three.

My Current Read

Since Eva Ashwood is an auto-buy author for me, I knew that I’d get closest to reaching my reading goal if I finished the year off with her works. So, I also started reading the Black Rose Kisses series, and she’s knocking it out of the park again with this one. Book one, Fight Dirty, is already pulling me in like a moth to a flame. Definitely recommended.

Recent Finds Unrelated to Reading

I suppose some may not call this a “find,” however, I only just recently found this. On Vistaprint, they include an option in the sticker section to hire a designer for cheap to create a design for your brand. I offered a few options for colors and styles, as well as a photo reference that I liked and have been using for my Etsy page, and I have to admit that the first—and only—design that I was sent is going to be my new logo for my brand. It fits well with the name I’ve chosen and my style, so well done Vistaprint!

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Shorter Post This Week

AJ Hotz — Sun, 15 Dec 2024 00:00:00 +0000

A Break in The Barrenmire Lights

I am adjusting the dates for my next releases.

As fellow author, Jenna Barwin, once said, “There’s a clown car of characters screaming to get released from my brain, and the one yelling loudest gets released.”

I was planning on releasing the entire Barrenmire Lights collection, one after the other. However, I have an idea that has been screaming at me—screaming to get out of my head—within these last few weeks, and it’s been so loud, if you know what I mean, that I have to write it. I have to. So, after I finish the next Barrenmire Lights book, Hollow, I will be writing this other book.

I will begin writing the final two Barrenmire Lights books after that, but this idea has begun to invade my dreams more frequently now, and it’s time to write it. It will be very therapeutic to write, so that’s exciting. And I get to see a very good friend of mine that I haven’t seen in a long time. I’ve also already completed the blurb for the book as well as part of the outline, and I think it is the best blurb I have written thus far. As a side note, just so I’m not tooting my own horn, I’m critical enough of myself that I don’t actually think my blurbs are ever that great, but this one really hits me.

Hollow is also going to be published sooner than my original expected release of June 6th, and now it will be released April 6th, 2025.

My Current Read

Currently trying to hit my reading goal for the year, but I’ve done so much writing that I don’t think that is going to happen. However, in order to try to reach my goal, I am reading Eva Ashwood, because I can’t resist an Eva Ashwood book.

I’m currently reading The Dark Elite trilogy series by Eva Ashwood. I just finished reading the first book, Vicious Kings, and started the second book, Ruthless Knights. And I just have to say… wow! I’m already halfway through the second book in just a few days, and the spice is extra spicy and there’s an amazing plot going!

This series is also going to be my reading recommendation for the week.

Recent Movies & TV Shows

As expected, the last season of Ink Master was awesome, and so was the first season of The Summit! They’ve also announced that there will be a second season of The Summit, but there is no date yet.

Also, I didn't think I'd be into the show Landman, but it's been really good. I can't say that I care to watch every single episode, but damn if there aren't certain events that really grab my attention.

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